| Saturday, May 9th, 2009 |
| 10:44 pm |
A series of unfortunate events.
I feel completely emotionally drained. It has been an incredibly long time since I have even used livejournal. I have lost so much recently. I feel like it will be impossible to completely recover from my most recent experiences. I know that's not the case, but for now I just feel hopeless, and find it easy to wallow in my own self pitty. I feel another large change in my life coming on. I am 90% sure that I am going to reenlist, but this time in the Airforce. I feel it will restore some kind of structure in my completely chaotic life right now. I also feel like I need a completely fresh start somewhere else. The benefits will be amazing. I just recently lost the single most important person in my life, besides my lovely daughter. She was my best friend and more, and now I will never get to see her again. I know that I can't make decisions for someone, but I feel she is making a horrible one by doing what she is doing. I didn't have the heart to tell her that things don't change. That no matter how long you hold out, the other person will always be the same. Sure, things will be different at first. They always are. Two months later after everything dies down, it will go directly back to the way it was. She won't be appreciated, they will continue to argue about the same dumb shit, and life will go on the same exact way. I have known both of them for so long, and while he may not buy her a transformer for their anniversary any more. It will be something equally as dumb and meaningless. I wish that wasn't the case though, and that things would be great for her. I know that will most likely not happen though. He has no respect for her needs and wants. Because if he did, he would of already of given her whats she needed. In her defense though she was a victim of circumstance. Horrible things one right after another kept happening some how keeping her where she was and will always remain. I need something to help take my mind off of it long enough for my wounds to scar over again. I feel so incredibly dramatic, but can't help it. I want to just get into my car and just keep driving until I find a place that I like and start over again. Meet new people, experience new things, and create a brand new life somewhere else. That won't happen though. I will remain here for the time being. Finish my online courses and save enough money and then maybe move somewhere far away from this place. I know though, no matter how far away I travel, she will always have a place in my heart and I will always think about her, but will never be able to talk to her again. Current Music: CCR- Candle in the window |
| Monday, August 13th, 2007 |
| 7:07 pm |
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| Friday, May 18th, 2007 |
| 11:09 pm |
Rules: Use the 1st letter of your last name to answer each of the following...They MUST be real places, names, things...NOTHING made up! If you can't think of anything, skip it. Try to use different answers if the person before you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question... Now Go! Last Name: sullivan 1. Famous singer/band slayer 2. Street name seminole 4. Color: sea foam green 5. Gifts/presents: superbowl tickets 6. Vehicle: supra 7. Things in a Souvenir Shop: straw hats 8. Boy Name: steve 9. Girl Name: sarah silverman 10. Movie Title: say anything 11. Drink: silver spider 12. Occupation: security 13. Flower: sun flower 14. Celebrity: sam jackson 15. Magazine: sports illustrated 16. U.S. City: san fran 17. Pro Sports Teams: seattle seahawks 18. Fruit: strawberries 19. Reason for Being Late for Work: sickness 20. Something You Throw Away shit 21. Things You Shout: suck it where the fuck is #3? Current Music: rise against- paper wings |
| Thursday, December 14th, 2006 |
| 8:05 am |
Choices
Lately i have been faced w/ a lot of difficult choices ... should i just buckle down and start getting all the achievments for the games i own or keep playing gears of war unrelently until i finally kill 100 people w/ each weapon and kill 10,000 people in ranked matches. if anyone has any suggestions on which i should choose then by all means give me some input other then that working night shift is kicking my ass i leave for work about 1600 hrs and get back home about 0630 hrs and stay up till roughly 10000 hrs and its slowly getting harder to stay awake at work. it seems that every time i blink i blink for 5 minutes then catch my head falling foward and jump outta my seat in a futile attempt to wake myself up. The worst thing is that i dont even get to sleep next to kim at night cause when im falling asleep she is waking up. It sucks when your used to having a warm body next to you. Im also torn on the issue... should i get Lost Planet,Viva Pinata, or see what everyone else is gonna get next so we can all play online together. Thats just about summed up these past couple days. |
| Saturday, December 9th, 2006 |
| 8:22 am |
CAP is what holds the marvel universe together!!!!!
Ultimate Alliance is basically what i do w/ my free time now when im not at work. well its a tie between dead rising and UA but anyway that game rocks my cock. so many characters in the game i dont know who to play as. One tasty morsel that raven added was the make your own team bonus. So now my team consists of Cap.,deadpool, Spiderman(just to make christian happy), Ghost rider, and since i needed some ethnicity luke cage is a part of this ensemble. So w/ my lack of creativity i named my rag tag team the X-Avengers. Hopefully soon i will be able to hook up my live so that i can play online w/ christian and get some online time w/ gears of war. So enough about videogames I have been working an assload the plus about my job is that its only three days on then u get three days off so i cant bitch about that. Paige is outta control all she does now is run around and scream. she also poops alot.tonight me and Kim will get some much deserved R&R... and by that i mean hopefully we go out and get blitzed (like that horrible attempt at cross breeding wrestling and football) then end up passed out on some random persons floor. Im looking foward to this new year because we are looking to get our own place in the area and not have to worry about 2 babies and a nagging step mother. So that about sums up my last couple months ill keep you updated on when to expect me on 360 live. oh yeah before i go i wanna give a shout out to my boy bry who recently left us and moved to cali STAY UP PLAYA! |
| Wednesday, June 14th, 2006 |
| 3:52 am |
look i know your not interested but i thought i would run the idea by u not this weekend but the weekend after that me and sean are calling off thursday and friday wanna go to tampa spend the night in a hotel and go to the castle dance it up then go the next day to warp tour if your in call me or message me |
| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006 |
| 1:24 am |
Play list
Me and sean have compiled and exstensive playlist for this weekend so if u have anything u wish to add to the music selection then leave a comment if not then dont complain when u make a request at the party and get shot down because this is your only chance to request songs that u may want to hear |
| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006 |
| 1:02 am |
have you ever seen the things that go on outside
its been a while since i updated so lets just cut to the chase lotsa work i dont have a life during the week. and sometimes i dont have one on the weekend. Been hanging out with a lotta people i havent seen in a while ( christian & jordan). The time that im not at work is spent playing Kingdom hearts 2 and playing with paige. Congrats to Sean & Amanda they made a lovely child whos hair is 10 times more stylish then mine will ever be. Other than not much really going on. fathers day is comming up and its strange to think that it applys to me now. Even though i believe its just another halmark holiday. Cause when im older the gifts will consist of tube socks. halmark and the tube sock industry have been in cahoots as far back as i can remember. So im blacklisting tubesocks and halmark. Um what else martini night was fun. Last night was fun boozing it up w/ bryan and christian even though today at work sucked because i was so dehydrated and i started oozing booze from my pores. thats no good. That about sums it up other than i cant wait for this weekend cause theres gonna be lotsa booze and a dance party and i can pretty much guarantee that har mar superstar- dui will be play at least 6 times if not more. Current Mood:  complacentCurrent Music: blood brothers- cecilia |
| Monday, May 1st, 2006 |
| 12:18 am |
Big News
well as most of you know already something really big has just happened to my making me the happiest man in the world. As of April 29th at around 1130-1200 Kim and I have gotten engaged. Possibly the 2nd most nerveracking thing i have ever done the 1st having a baby. But both turned out wonderfully and i coulndt be happier. |
| Sunday, April 9th, 2006 |
| 10:12 pm |
having a gettogather the 15th
the 15th the day before easter we are havig a get togather... we plan to grill during the day consume some beer while doing so then after eating we plan on leaving and going to a bar to consume more beer if you wish to be a part of this message me back fuckers or tell kim |
| Monday, December 19th, 2005 |
| 4:16 pm |
i wanna punch you in the face
not much has happened recently just workin and hanging out with sean and amanda alot. i have a feeling that everyone needs to hang out and have a lotta beer pretty soon and by soon i mean now. World of warcraft has taken over my life. its just to much damn fun. recently come to terms that i lost 2 of my best friends. i guess people just grow up and grow apart. thats all rightcause im listening to quiet riot cum on feel the noise and i know im gonna have a few beers tonight maybe play some cranium. who knows the possabilities are endless. ok not really that pretty sums up all the choices for things i have to do tonight. its alright because after everyones asleep it will just be me and my WOW teehee. Current Music: whitesnake- here i go again |
| Monday, November 28th, 2005 |
| 11:49 am |
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| Thursday, November 24th, 2005 |
| 12:39 pm |
Happy fat ass day everyone.... ok thats all i got! |
| Sunday, October 16th, 2005 |
| 7:39 am |
WOW!
ok so i beat xeno saga one in 40 something hours now a new game has started to devour my soul. World of Warcraft this game has and will probably fuck up my sleep pattern for a long time. the last couple nights i was playing it i stayed up till like 6 in the morning its to addictive im a lv 16 rogue god im so cool it hurts anyway at the moment im currently in jacksonville counting down the hours till i can leave this hell hole and return home and spend time with... KIM no not the computer im sure thats what the majority of u were thinking but ill just wait till she falls asleep then ill spend time w/ the comp. jk anyway this trip to jacksonville has been a complete waste of time i have done nothing since i have been here. not to mention i drove here on 2 hours of sleep because friday i didnt get home till 1:30 am the i had to be up at about 4:oo am so that i coule be here by 7:50 am someone fucking hated me that day. the baby bash 05 went off w/out a hitch i had lots of fun good times were had i was just fucking done by the end of the night though there was plenty of beer consumed and not just any beer miller highlife u cant get any more classy then that my mother didnt look to pleased when i started pulling the beers outta the fridge at the baby shower eh its i still had a lotta fun a lot more people showed up then i thought the house was pretty packed also i wanna thank everyone for commin that was there if there is one word i would to describe the baby shower it would be "boobs" anyway my goal for tonight is to get my night elf rogue up to lv 17 i am so fucking cool it hurts oh yeah damn tif and roy i cant stop listening to steven lynch now |
| Wednesday, October 5th, 2005 |
| 9:13 am |
i just wish people would die
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I'll tell you my first memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. If you want, I mean, I'm not gonna force you or anything. |
| Friday, September 30th, 2005 |
| 6:28 pm |
heres a crap load of pictures
something that will probably never happen again. look how sad i look.
drunk at the silver Q
sorry ladies im taken
drunk at sean and amandas apt.
me + sean = male bonding
drunk in Pcola jerry looks like a damn anime character
I just couldnt wiat for them to finish their cheers
i know what your thinking no i did not take that pic. from the hit sly stalone movie over the top.
me explaining to james what i was gonna do to jerry w/ that finger later
my babys momma. i love her THE END |
| Saturday, September 24th, 2005 |
| 3:27 pm |
49 hours of my life gone
well i finally played through and beat xenosaga (1st) and i have to say thats a fucking sweet game. im starting xenosaga 2 today. Current Mood:  accomplished |
| Friday, September 23rd, 2005 |
| 7:20 am |
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| Thursday, September 22nd, 2005 |
| 5:39 pm |
i want a pack of smokes and a 12 pack |
| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 |
| 10:25 pm |
It's a Girl
well we found out that the baby is gonna be a little girl. the sonogram pictures are pretty fuckin cute. But i came to the conclusion that its hard to come up w/ girls names. a lot more difficult than boys .everyone i know is basically invited to the booze shower just get in touch w/ me somehow. Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: Tiger Army- Annabel Lee |
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